I don't understand why I feel so dead inside
Why would I set the key aside
If I hadn't lost that key
You wouldn't be in my head right now I just want to be set free
My body is starting to break down
My mind is going in circles being chased around
My head is stirring up dark deep thoughts
How can I make it stop I'm so out of sorts
Why did I let you beat me and choke me
You wouldn't stop until my body went limp I didn't know at the time I was just a trainee
All the while I thought you loved me
All I wanted was to make a family tree
You loved being in power and in control
I lost everything my body,heart, and soul
You was a con straight out of the hood
I was a fish straight out of school
I wasn't living no more just going through the motion day by day
Waiting mostly for the hits that you gave me when I disobeyed
Being careful of where I was hit
So no one could tell I was being extinguished
you didn't want bruised merchandise
You preyed on my mind as I declined
Following every rule you made
Taking every punishment you served
Was I gonna be sold to traffickers
Or was you afraid to let your money maker go to the panthers
Was this the bigger picture all along
You stole my key and sold it to the devil is that why my head was always bashed against the wall
I was under your spell
Only way out was through hell
People see you hitting and beating me
But they just walk around or keep going never saying word to help me get my master key
Why did you not stop and help me
Maybe I would've went back but what if you was the one who set me free
My life was in danger
I was told my family was too which was a game changer
I did as told and when I was told and what I was told
Somewhere in your f--ked up mind you thought I wasn't obeying you was always in control
That's when you used whatever weapon
You had in tow to beat me into submission I reckon
You thought you was a player
You was my soul taker
Written by: Denise Huddleston
