You smiled every time you saw me at the door, You smiled even more when i sat by your side, Never once did you tell me my talking so much made your head ache, Instead you pressed the morphine button from time to time, So it hurt, every time you smiled i hurt, Every time i saw laughter in your eyes i hurt, And every time you laughed i cried, Because there were needles all over your body, Because you were all alone in the hospital bed, Because i knew you were in pain, Why were you so happy? When you knew you were dying, And so for that, i will never forgive you.