Death Pain

Similar secret skeletons never seen hidden shoved so dark deep down that it can be so in common when been shared That the truth can be in plain sight But so many lies turnt it into blindness Triggered by your own shadows And distance from a touch or hug Results quick reflexes to a little touch Never had the imagined of experiencing the feeling That shaking a frenemy hand can be seen so raw in reality Now I learned the meaning of keep your friends closer But your enemies closer That’s when them trust issues start to proceed into affect Like you can’t trust a soul It’s the feeling just like you keep turning a stemming Hot kettle on the stove to just set just to let it go Straight back to cold just to watch and repeat The same thing over and over again to suffer Because it makes you feel in control Never did I fall in love with you but loved Not once felt timid to speak when I love You wanted it so bad Every time I just shutdown and decline it Once your hands kept breaking that trust Made the decision and seen To who I really needed to been giving my love and energy to That it only took just once And never can it be repaired The words I know I’ve taken you for granted fall from your lips Shook so many levels of walking with silent anger in me To a different type hurt of gettin played Never did I leave but force away Sad to say the last feeling I had left remaining was caring In my heart I rather forgive you than go back to a bitter person wasn’t even worth it Observing you show it instead Still solid rocking right by your side Switching my vision up to also Watching you as a mother and her son child/sibling slip away in front of their eyes Rise to dawn night and day 24/7 without a day off by Her side Beautiful never ending strength and faith That it deeply feed my soul with knowledge And the encouragement of determination never giving up but growing a stronger bond together as family suppose to do no matter the circumstances Because watching her time to fly up To gain her wings Shit broke my heart to see your heart shattered into broken pieces that it driven your happiness of smiles straight into pain Seeing y’all crying for her to not leave y’all To crying her name everyday in silence And out loud to just come back to you Body shaking in shock heart racing afraid Like a little kid is scared of the dark Never did I had in mind to leave But stand strong for y’all Never believed in leaving a person Especially if I already knew how it felt to be on the other side Seeing y’all so broken and hurt like that In that moment changed my whole life just in the blink of an eye about life