A curse I cast myself
You’d never think I’d be so cruel
Would it be better for me to claim
To simply be a fool?
Still the product seems to remain
Eerily the same
Lay in bed at night
Feeling a painful sort of way
As though my stomach has a pit in its midst
So I will just stay in that state of mind today
For the exhaust I feel - it is internal
Yes, I am aware of how unfair that is for me to say
But this cycle that has me in its hold
I’m afraid to say it’s getting so old
My balance is hard to keep
Even lost my ability to stay at peace
Inside my soul is a battle ground
The hippies took there leave
It’s hard to find a reason for even me to stay
As I tear myself away
Piece by piece
I apologize
It is not you in which I do not believe
When you repeat that phrase
“We all have a bad day”
To you I’ll never quite relay
Everyday for me
Is the exact same way
