I was so stupid
I was so- so terribly stupid
How could I even think I had a chance
The future can’t erase everything I did
I don’t belong here in this dance
I don’t understand the choices I’ve made
But I thought I could start anew
Little did I know the past doesn’t fade-
I’m still haunted by all I’ve been through
But for one brief moment
When you smiled and took my hand
That one ounce of hope was sent…
I actually believed you could understand
I believed it would all be erased from time
I believed I could be free from these shadows
The image is still in my head
Sunshine and roses at the end of the journey
Joy of… living every single moment till I’m dead
Free from judgement and misery
Free from the face in the glass
How much I’ve tried to paint a picture new
Oh how much I tried to fly in the hope this brings
How much I believed I was good enough for you
Reality has come back again to clip my wings
I feel myself falling further
I don’t even know why I still bother
But I can’t help but look up at the stars
Beautiful kind eyes- those soul steeling jars
You’ve had me locked in them since that day
The day you took my hand
I was so stupid to think I could stay
I know that I don’t deserve to have a chance
Give it up, watch from far away
As you continue alone though your dance
I don’t belong here… in your dance
