So look at a relationship like this… (this can be any form of relationship) it is just like a beautiful flower! To blossom and be full of beautiful petals and sweet sweet fragrance you must care for it… water it… nurture it responsibly and that flower will grow so very beautifully! But when you are in an extremely mentally abusive relationship your flower 🌺 is NOT getting but just a very small amount of some form of nourishment, it is only gettin very little drops of water, it is getting very small amount and droplets 💧 of water. Because this person ( whom was an amazing man it SEEMED at first) his objective is to keep you only alive enough to do his bidding. He wants you to become so weak and frail so that he can dominate you, keep you weak enough that eventually it becomes almost impossible for you to find any kind of peace or serenity at all… you must do what he orders to get but only a few small drops of water, very little care… Thus slowly and painfully this flower that was once beautiful and lovely and flourished with pride growing strong and tall it is now becoming sad looking, weltering away, barely growing, barely standing up… a flower that with one touch so very easily it could break. .
My flower was this sad, weltering almost dead in my roots flower, this was me when I arrived to my mother and stepfather. My flower was craving for some nourishment, craving some water…. Desperately wanting to be once again the beautiful, strong, flourishing and fragrant flower I once was… But my flower became so week and scared that it needed help to once again be capable of growing once more thriving beautiful and strong!!!
I didn’t just have to leave I had to be with with family that loves me that would help and provide the nourishment, water & care I needed to be capable of recovering from the neglect and given the opportunity to regain my former beauty and strength.. to once again stand up strong and rediscover how beautiful my flower will become and strong my flower can be. I do not mean beauty or strength only in the outside but in my roots! My roots must first recover! Then in an upward direction my flower will continue to grow strong and eventually be once again a strong healthy beautiful blossoming flower 🌸. The roots MUST become stronger, grow deeper, so that I will not allow anyone else to pluck my flower from the foundation I’ve chosen to grow in. The roots must do so, so that I can not be captured and place in a jar, isolating me from the world and from the beautiful sun shining down on me. The
Capturer enjoying watching the torture of me slowly weltering away, stealing my beauty and confidence and enjoying the power of being able to do so.
But now my flower is get the necessities it needs and it is once again growing strong and beautiful!
