I really need help
with all the demons I’m facing
show many bad Memories
no wonder my mind keep racing
I’ll never be good enough
I’ll never feel
loved,
wanted,
or Appreciated
yeah that kind of stuff
i just wanna feel loved
is something wrong with that
why u think I can’t change
we never talk
so I hide all the pain
I hate me
dear Lord
what’s taking so long for u to take me
I just wanna know
and I know I’m goin to hell
cuz I know I’m not good enough
to come knocking on your door
no matter how hard I try
I always tend to make the people around me cry
I give up
like it’s my only choice
I’ll do anything just to hear my daddy’s voice
I’m mentally drained
the only person I want
doesn’t want me again
like why me
just show me the lights like a deer in the high beams
I been begging for help
I tried 2 or 3 times
killing myself
I know I don’t prey
that’s cuz I really don’t know what to say
I lost myself a long time ago
i remember having faith
along time ago
i ruin everything
that’s why I stopped praying
cuz I felt u wasn’t hearing me
but why listen to me
I never did nothing
for anybody
to be happy to see
I ain’t got nobody to ask
what happen to me
they say things get better
stop capping to me
I put everyone 1st
and still get done the worst
all the bad things
that happen to me
I gotta be cursed
so why not call it quits
if I raise my voice
she thinks she gonna get hit
one of 3 of my kids don’t like
and I been there since she been in a dyppe
I let my feelings out and don’t even get a response
I get her mad once and she’s hitting his line
let me know what to do
just give me a sign
I really can change
just give it some time
