In our father, howl be thy name. Howl be, our father who delivered us grace; who delivered us faith.
Our father delivered us evil; delivered us his first son woodworm.
Who sought the wicked hidden beneath our faith. He howled through our grace through our very graves.
To show our father we aren’t as giving as he so thought, to our father he saw evil and good hidden or shown through our eyes.
Where the soul is kept hidden, he sought to give us both life and death. Our father howl be thy name, saved those that didn’t oppose the words spoken from his son Yeshua (Jesus). I walked along the devils path for many years, indulged in painful tears of demons laughters.
Exile to the abyss, in the abyss the Lord speaks. He asked me
“ why have you strain so far from your path my child, you arent possessed to walk along the wicked. Your heart is warm like the burning sun, you cant carry your wounds to your wicked desires.
You need to come back, come back my child”.
As i heard this voice i could not see…..only darkness, i awoke in a hospital bed.
I tried to take my life. . . But it was not the only time he had to remind me of my real desires, my true path of goodness.
Today i finally feel awake again i am no longer bound to my wickedness or past, i forgive my love i forgive myself.
My sins cover my skin like tattoos, i no longer carve my sins into my scripture( my skin). I am free, my old friends were many devils that damaged my soul, my body was rearranged before i could bloom in adolescence.
I spoken false truths with many lies between the lines, but my soul reminds me of my truths behind those lies. I am not fine, so are you; why should we blame ourselves for things we cannot control.
I learned this the hard way through our father sending me signs, my body aches and resembles a broken past of abuse and terror by my own hand; cause i felt i was to blame, i felt i had to control those unwanted events.
But i was wrong i could not control some mens evil attentions to harm not only your body but your mind and soul…i could not understand who to blame..i understood the wrongs and righteousness among us, but i was young but not young to not understand want i wanted and did not want.
I wanted love and i got pain, i wanted friends i gotten enemies. I couldn’t understand why each old friend was a monster in disguise, i was treated cruel but my old friends. Became a distant thought but with endless reminders.
I am human, im only human. Your human only human, we can’t continue to blame ourselves for things we can not control.
We are beautiful, weird, and different; thats what makes us human.
