My hands are hot hot hot
My palm is turning red
I’m smiling for the spectators
To hide how much I’ve bled
Like the daughter of pain
The helpless friend of agony
I am terror’s enemy
Guilt and sadness’ favorite prey
Withered I have become
Like the sunflower that shined too bright for too long
The sun that rose and set all too soon
The fire that burnt too bright and died so quickly
So easily
I was all that and some…
“Something more,” they all lied to me
Girls like me should stop dreaming
Stop kneeling to hope and pray
We are tired and broken souls
We’ve fought too many losing battles
With the hungry, determined dreamer within us
How she covets medals and gold earned by others
How she screams at her own reflection in the shattered mirror
Because she has recognized the face of a failure
A dull, dying star lost in the great ever changing galaxy
God knows I tried
I tried and failed…miserably
Unforgettably
Their eyes told me I’d never make it
But I refused to believe them
Now with wearing bones
I sit alone with a heavy heart, embarrassed
Oh how I wish
I’d shone a little brighter but burnt a little softer
