I need a stimulant.
In a world so numb and repetitive
I just wanna melt into the cold ground and convince myself I’m floating.
I wanna wake up confused everyday
I want all my memories to be temporary
I don’t wanna be self aware.
It’s so simple, putting something into my body and just disappearing
Even if that means I can only disappear for a couple hours,
I’ll take it.
I want you to choke me.
It’s disgusting and sad
It’s so dumb
But you can’t escape without dying
And I don’t wanna die yet
So just scramble my brain for a bit,
Make me smile at nothing
Make me lost.
I’ll loose myself to you
Because without you, I’m still lost
I rather be lost under the influence.
So take me away,
I have nothing to loose anyways.
-Em
