on this particular night i put myself out there. i not only opened my arms but my heart. open for love.
if thats what this was.
when we arrived to the park, i looked around and asked myself. where am i?
what am i doing here? alone ? with this random boy ive never spoken a word to until now.
i watched as he pulled bags and clothes out of his trunk, which turned out to be blankets.
we sat down in the middle of the park where it was pitch black and windy. he set down the blanket and waited for me to kneel and sit down to put a blanket on me. "In case you get too cold" he said.
i thought that was sweet.
we sat down in a long and comfortable silence, whilst looking around at the sky and trees. we started talking about our lives, what we were thinking of at the moment and we began asking each other questions. with each question he asked his breath was in the air. it was that cold. i could see his breath and all i wanted to do was breathe it in. what was it about this boy that made me trust and believe in him so much. im not sure. i could see him rub his hands together for warmth and his body shiver. i handed him my gloves and threw half of the blanket he had given me onto him. he smiled.
"you're sweet" he said.
as the wind blew i could smell him, i could smell his aroma in the air and i felt at home. i wasn't anxious or nervous, i felt like this is where i had to be. with him.
i felt whole.
i had never sat in silence comfortably with another human being unknown to me. No need to talk or think. we just sat there and enjoyed each others presence.
i thought it was beautiful.
