Not now, I don’t have time
Not now, it’s all just too much
Not now, this isn’t what I want
Not now, you just misunderstood
Not never, just not now
Interested? Why would I be interested
Friends? I mean I guess but we’ll see
Friends is too much, you are too much
Just go I don’t have time for you
No not time for this, no time for you
Only when I serve a purpose
Only when I fill a void
Only when I can be a comfort
Only when I can be calm
Only when I have no hope
That’s when it’s ok, I am ok
That’s when it’s ok, ok to want to be around
That’s when it’s ok, ok to crave your attention
That’s when it’s ok, ok to need your acceptance
That’s when it’s ok, I wear my heart on my sleeve
Only then, I really start to Think
Only then, I really start to Hope
Only then, I really start to Feel
Only then, I really start to Want
Only then, I really start to Dream
Not now, I don’t have time
Not now, it’s all just too much
Not now, this isn’t what I want
Not now, you just misunderstood
Not never, just not now
Only when I serve a purpose
Only when I fill a void
Only when I can be a comfort
Only when I can be calm
Only when I have no hope
That’s when, I will start to see
That’s when, I will start to break
That’s when, I will start to hurt
That’s when, I will start to understand
That’s when, I will start to learn
It will never be me, I am not a choice
It will never be me, I am too emotional
It will never be me, I am not a want
It will never be me, I am too raw
It will never be me, I am just not right
Only then, does my mind ponder
Only then, does my hope splinter
Only then, does my pain take hold
Only then, does my dream delude
Only then, does my heart shatter
Just how many times will there be only when
Just how much does it take to learn only then
