close my eyes

I try to close my eyes, I try not to dream. The dreams can be nightmares, And that makes me scared. But the nightmares aren’t fictional, Their flashbacks from my past. A part of me I’m glad did not last. But there’s still that trauma that lingers. Sometimes I just want to scream and shout. Nobody understands the pain, Nobody understands what it’s like to me homeless in the rain. Nobody around me understands the hurt, The hurt that comes with being thrown in the dirt. When I close my eyes I try to let go. I try to dream of a happy future for you and for me. Take a deep breath, Close your eyes. We’re done with the abuse and the lies.