Dealing with jealousy can be really tough. These feelings can linger around us, making everything feel heavy. It’s hard to create a safe space, especially when loud arguments about politics happen around us. I used to think my family and friends would always support me, but I learned that isn’t true all the time. It’s scary to realize that some people use hurtful words just to get attention or feel loved. Sometimes, it feels like I’m surrounded by dead roses because of all the arguing and negative views in the world.
To help myself understand these feelings, I started seeing a therapist. It’s important to talk to someone about mental health, especially when you feel isolated. But getting the right help can be challenging, as the system sometimes overlooks real issues people face. Living with a disability can make you feel very alone. I often wish more people would show they care. My journey to heal is ongoing, and I am searching for ways to feel safe and supported.
Lately, I’ve noticed that many girls my age don’t appreciate where they come from, and social media has a lot to do with this. Life used to be simpler and less complicated. Now, social media creates a fake world where it seems like rich kids are living in a bubble, surrounded by people who don't always have good intentions. I feel lonely sometimes, and my friendships aren’t strong. Many are formed around using medications or alcohol, which makes it hard to connect on a deeper level.
Sometimes, I think about using substances, feeling like escaping reality is the only option. It’s heavy to always question my dreams, especially when I feel misunderstood. I wonder why my thoughts and feelings feel different from others. Is love like a disease that spreads? I often picture my heart as an oval, heavy with feelings, as if life has been a struggle since I was born. I believe every newborn deserves loving care from their parents, and I hope to find that kind of support and understanding as I continue on my journey.