I know you

I know you’d be proud because you always loved teaching us sign language and told us we should learn, you sat for hours teaching us our ABC’s I know you’d be proud because you always preach about how god is there for us and how he’ll never leave our side I know you’d be proud because you always Rehearsed our manners with us over and over even though we forgot constantly I know you’d be proud because you always taught us to be selfless and to put others first I know you’d be proud because you wanted us to be our true selves and never to be ashamed I know you’d be proud because you always loved poetry and writing I know you’d be proud because you’re still in everyone’s heart just like we are all in yours But I guess I’ll never know for sure anymore but I now use sign language with Adi and I teach it to the kids I sit for hours teaching them their abc’s, every time I sign I remember what you told me so even when I struggle to understand I know I’m doing it for you I now talk to Angelina about god and pray for you I answer the questions gordo has even if I have to swallow my disbelief like ball of fire too hot to hold I now chew with my mouth closed because I remember you hated when I didn’t , please and thank you are my main words now I preach them just like you did I now wait for every one to get a plate before I eat although sometimes I forget I now go by Leo and walk with my head held high because even if I’m scared I know you wouldn’t be, my name doesn’t hold shame because of your words I now read poetry and write when I can, I reread your poetry over and over again I now talk about you like you’re still here because in my mind and heart no one can truly know me unless they know you too I know you so I know you’d be proud -love love love to Vanessa ❤️