You always want what’s best for me even if it’s hard for me to see at the time
They say time heals the pain but I know your pain pierces you deeper than words can explain
I want you to know I think of you everyday as your my guidance for how a person can turn heartbreak and heartache into unstoppable love
You’ve proven to me that even with a back filled with bloody bullet holes you’d block every one just so you could to stop them from even grazing us
No one is perfect, even though you try to be you’re dealing with your own troubles and I want to let you know that you’ve helped me grow into who I am today and I believe we grew together
so I don’t think the time healed the pain but I believe it showed you that your pain is nothing compared to who you are
I know the days are hard and not every one of comes by easy but I’ll be here waiting for when you need me
You have people here for you up above and on land too
I know Vanessa prays to god for him see you through
I couldn’t ask for a better mom because my mom knows harsher winds than anyone I know
My moms dragged us through the snowstorm barefoot just so we could see the snow
My mom takes scraps and makes beautiful bouquets she takes what people consider trash and makes art displays
My mother takes your doubt and pity and throws it to the floor just to make something pretty
She’s like a rose that grew out of concrete despite the odds she never let the solidity of your doubts hold her back
I’ve made the mistake of doubting my mom before but I’ve learned to never hold her back but to always have her back instead because she truly can do whatever she sets her mind to so if she can so can I
That’s a lesson I’ll forever be grateful for
My moms nothing like anyone else’s mom because I know she wants what’s best she never accepted anything less
So because of her neither will I
When I reach the concrete I’ll push till I break it because hard times won’t break our spirits, we will let them fly
I’ll strive to be the best person I can be and I’ll own up when I’m mistaken
I’ll give the shirt off my back to someone more in need because my mom would slit her wrists and bleed if she knew that you were thirsty and give the skin off of her back just to make sure you were warm
She’d give her house of bricks away brick by brick till all she had left was the land
She tries to save everyone even if she doesn’t have enough strength to save herself at the end
So I may not be as as selfless as my mom but I’ll do as much as I can that includes swimming back for you when you no longer carry the strength to even stand alone but the truth is you never will be alone because I’ll always be here for you so even if god won’t see you through I will and I hope you know I’d skin my back just to give you another and scavenge for more bricks to replace the ones you give because for as long as I live I’ll only be as selfless as you when it comes to helping you help others because I understand when you help others you’re truly helping yourself because help was all you ever needed and now I understand so my bloody back will hold more bricks for you and whoever else you wish too
So dear my selfless mom I’ll always be back to back with you
