The time moves faster when I’m with you
The seconds speed by and hours feel like minutes
They speed up just like my heart rate when I feel yours close to mine
I’ve always wanted someone as close as you try to be
to want to know me and I mean really want to know me
To study my every choice mesmerized
I’ve known you for a while and I guess I was too busy studying you to notice that your eyes had followed mine
I miss you the second I shut the door
But sometimes I think about keeping it that way running away in hopes that maybe that way would cause you less pain
I press my hand into yours when the door is closed because my mind has closed the
thought of letting people in
i can feel my heart ready to cave in as I let you slightly through not because of you but because i self destruct
So the speed of the minutes may be plastered on my chest ready to explode the moment I feel less
I’m a ticking time bomb and the closer I get to you the faster the clock starts to race
So I’ll hold my place as close as I can because I know I can trust you but I won’t trust myself
I won’t let you in for fear I’ll fall apart
I don’t want to start from scratch because my glass was already falling from the start one more hit may be my last so because of my past my heart will try to ricochet your love even though it’s already embedded in my glass
I never want to become someone you couldn’t tell anything and everything to
and I know that with a partner that’s not something you’ll always do
I’m scared of this because I’ve always thrown myself into relationships careless but I couldn’t imagine losing this
