The Lie of ‘I Hate You’

Hello? Is anyone there? Am I invisible? No. I’m not invisible. I ask this because it’s you that turned me invisible. Why am I invisible to you? Why do you want me gone? Hello? Is anyone there? Am I invisible? These words echo and linger in my head. I hope one day they echo and linger in your head as well. I don’t mean that. I’m not evil. Evil? You hurt me. I’m walking a dog; You are the dog. I’m walking you. Maybe you think I’m pulling too hard— Or that I’m dragging you around. Well thanks again for making this about you. That’s what you always do. It’s like we’re in your world with your rules. You can forget about me, Or turn me invisible— But it was me. It was me who was your friend all along. You left— I stayed. Think about that. It was me who was good to you. Even after you buried me away, Does this paint the picture for you? What is so magnificent about her That made you forget me? What does she have that I don’t? This is what’s frustrating— Infuriating. I want to say I hate you, But that would be the biggest lie ever told. “I hate you.” Liar liar pants on fire! Fire. The fire in my head. There is so many thoughts in my head, My head might as well explode. You spoke my name once— Now it gathers dust. Maybe I should walk away. You’re the dog— Remember? This time I’m leaving you behind.