My mental health has been getting worse
But i dont how to tell people
Insecurity and relapsing hasn’t left my mind
and my normal self i have yet to find
purpose of life sometimes slips my head
and i guess that’s why i find it hard to get out of bed
my stomach had bugged my for some years
but when i talk about it people let it go right past their ears
i don’t really know what to do with myself
it’s like everything i say or do seems to slip away
i can’t fight the urge to cut again
but i know that won’t help in the end
but the temptation with my blade is somehow comforting
it’s like it wants to give me a big squeeze so it can cut into my heart
like a bullseye shot with a dart
i’m 4 months clean
but the shake in my body doesn’t feel real
should i do it or should i not
my stomach is twisting in knots
i hate the way my mind thinks
it’s like im cursed with a jinx
pills and a blade just a reach away
but if i do either my body will fadeaway
i really don’t wanna die
but all i can do is cry
maybe i should go back on meds
but i fear that it will put me back in bed
my parents think everything is fine
but really im lying
i hate the way i am
i dont what to do about myself
i think i might just need time to heal
but i dont know
