I don't understand you. Your timing is so amazing and horrible at the same time. It's like the times when I'm so alone and only start to get thoughts of doing something I'll regret later, you never pick up, but when I'm about to act on it, you pick up on the first ring. It's like you're keeping me alive just to ghost me again. And I know it's not your fault, you have your own shit to do, but you are one of my best friends and literally my lifeline. I just don't understand how you don't see it. It's like sometimes I don't even know if you can tell how much I'm hurting. Is it that I hide it too well or that you're ignoring it? Because I know you can't just ‘not see it’. You're smarter than that, I know you are, so I just wanna know why it is that you have the worst timing on earth but still manage to always be the one keeping me alive. Just keep picking up when it matters I guess. Though it doesn't really matter anymore.
