But I’m not this piece of glass you can glue over and over again
Well, I guess I am in a way
Cause you can fix me
You just can never make me whole again
You’ll always see the cracks and the scars
You’ll always see the little part of me that’s not in that cup
You’ll always see the missing bits and pieces
When you look too deep into my soul
And when you do, you’ll understand that I’m broken and you can’t fix me
And you’ll run away out of fear that I’ll break you too
Shit I don’t blame you
Cause that’s just what I do anyway
I break you cause I’m broken
I self sabotage every good thing that comes to me
No matter how hard I try
Somehow, I fuck it up
I’m self sabotaging freak
This broken thing that can’t be fixed
But I always make it seem like I am
Even when I’m not OK
I still act as if I am
Once you break down my walls, you see I’m not
Then you run
And you don’t look back
Unless it’s to see if I’m following you
In the second, I’m not
You turn around and you push and pull up my buttons
Until I’m following you again
After I just made myself understand, I don’t need you
Then I need you again
I know this from experience
I don’t know that you will
But that little part of me will always believe everyone is there to hurt me
And Will always leave me
And when you shatter my heart
Once more
But I’m begging for you to do it
Not verbally
But surely I love when you turn around to see if I’m still chasing you
Because it shows that I still exist in your mind
Even if it’s not full, even if it’s just for your use
You still notice I exist
So yes, I’ll chase you even when I don’t want to
Because I see your validation
I seek it
In ways, I never knew I’d have to
Because in my heart, you’ll always be the one who got away
But I was always three steps behind you
Still chasing you
Still wanting your love
Still craving your validation
Even though you don’t care about me anymore
