Random nights alone with nobody to talk with
summer days always lonely as there wasn’t
A friend to chase around and cry with…
Laying alone on a Friday night having conversations with my childhood stuffie as I hope it listens…
My phone vibrates, a notification lighting up my screen. I look at my phone as it talks begging me to open it, I just can’t resist it.
I open my phone and it’s a notification from snapchat…
A stranger added me..? I add them back and get an immediate message. “Hi it’s nice to meet you!”
I respond and over and over we talk and talk and talk. Days turn into weeks and weeks turn into months.
I made a new friend! Who listens to me at my worst and brings me to my feet. I can’t go a day without texting them!
Then comes your birthday, your day I can’t wait! Im probably more exited than you as I rush to my phone at midnight to send you a text. I type out this long paragraph everything you mean to me and I stay up waiting for your response. Waiting for minutes turned into hours and soon days. I text you updates on my life. I try to get you to answer as I call and call and call and yet no answer.
The longer I wait the harder it gets I have no one to speak to, no one to pull me up from these deep pits. My soul breaks into bits, the longer this goes I slowly turn into my old self, my parents wondering where their happy girl has gone. One day I open my phone hoping to see a message from you, when I open the app I see something I have never wanted to see.
You unadded me..? I reset my phone thinking it’s a joke over and over again. I can’t help but hope.
Then summer hits again, and im back in my room talking to my childhood stuffie hoping it listens.
By delilah nelson
