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I realized that hurting by myself is way worse than when I was hurting with you. I let myself get thrown around and used and the whole time I was thinking “I wouldn’t have been in this situation if I hadn’t messed up”. Every night laying in my bed feeling empty and crying because the person I truly loved I left because I was hurting but I only hurt worse after I left. Missing everything about them knowing I’ll never find someone incredible sweet funny and kind like they were. I know I will never make that mistake ever again I learned from my mistakes. I don’t deserve a chance to be loved like I was by them ever again.