I hope you know I wanted to stay. You think I asked to move away from everyone? You think I asked to cry myself to sleep every night now, hoping and praying you guys don’t forget about me? Even if I was excited before, I had no idea it would get this bad again. I had no fucking clue I would need you guys this much. I don’t think you know how hard this is without you. We all know my grades are going to slip, and I'm going to have a repeat of last year, and I'm sorry because I said I would be ok but that was before everything sank in. Even though I found friends here, I am completely and utterly alone in this. And that shit scares me more than anything else ever will.
