I know her still

I use to be a writer. I use to be a painter. Before I became the plate setter. Before I became a smile not quite reaching the eyes. Before I be came a lover. I use to trace darkened windowsills, swollen with empathy for a starless sky. I use to share ribbons of smoke and theories with strangers, cross legged on sweating sidewalks. I use to be a corner desk, basking in the sunlight. Warm with intention. I use to be an early spring river, cool to the touch but inviting no the less. I use to be a painter. I use to be a painter Before I be came a lover. And directly after.