elementary bus stop
high school drop-off
no fever, just a cough
take a cough drop, walk it off
go to work, never late
miss the exit
GPS: recalculate
wish my life came with that update
“hey stranger. where ya been?”
texts i receive cuz i never hit send
corporate management mode
professional
'til i implode
sleep alone
fix hair (times three)
still looks like it's mad at me
dig through mount laundry
plant a flag on the cleanest tee
reverse cripple my ADHD
swallow the pill
before it swallows me
"water exists"
take a drink
forget to eat
remember to feed
regret things i didn't say
make sure my girls are safe
the only job i'm not allowed
to call in to or fake
now let us play
American Roulette
bet half on "i'm fine"
the other half on "yeah, okay"
house always wins
i am the house anyway
scroll tiktok, watch the mullet dude
eat questionable chinese food
new sketchy buffet, every single day
idefk, i've got weird taste
"mom, can i have a super rare
rainbow squishy dumpling?"
"sure, sweetie, whatever you say."
write that down.
work for bills i can’t pay
christmas is a corner away
wash my face
vessels at the surface break
bloodshot eyes
thoughts dilate
lie down, meditate
let memories pick away
the parts of my soul that remain
pray the lord mine to stay
make deals with my demons
renegotiate each season
remember my reasons
i wake.
"oh. lovely. great.
we're doing this again."
spin the wheel,
repeat another day.
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[American Roulette 🎰 (Freestyle)]
by Midwest Salty
Author’s Note:
every day, same way, same routine,
no surprise, no in-between,
spin the wheel, bet it all,
cross it off, hit the wall,
in no particular order.
this is life
coexisting with my disorder.
xx, mws 🖤
