below the surface

I feel the waves coming in The slight breeze in my hair The sounds of the waves crashing against the boat The boat rocks The sun is shining The birds are chirping And that’s when I realized Not everything is perfect You can stand there for hours And nothing will change You can wait for years and nothing will change You can wait lifetimes but in the end It doesn’t matter Your life has a purpose It has meaning And that’s already enough My life has been rocking like the seas It’s been rough like the waves And I’ve traveled far But I didn’t let that stop me I didn’t stop living I started feeling My heart grew bigger And my mind became smaller The less thoughts I had, the more freedom I gained Flying like the birds above Through the wind and through the clouds I didn’t fight it I accepted it. I didn’t lose the battle But I haven’t won just yet When I arrive to the island I’ll let you know But if crash you’ll hear the blow Even though it’s a possibility I won’t let it happen Not today not ever I may take a break but I won’t crash The love I have for the sea will never die Even through the storm I lie I see through and through It’s more life It’s MY life It’s what I love Oh how I love so Now how could I let that go? When I leave Don’t come searching If I turn back Don’t come running You’ll see me from a distance Not too far but don’t come close It’s been a long journey It’s time to rest. Now that I’m home I know what I want The whisper of the waves I hear the peace The calming sensation I can hear it when I close my eyes The picture of the warm sun beating on my face The feeling of freedom Being free Being alone Being me. I’m sorry to say, but I let you go.