I dont know if i can i dont even know whats wrong its just everything i do is wrong and everyone just ends up leaving ive tried so many ways to cope it just never works i hate myself and i eat and eat and eat all the time and im picky so i dont eat vegtibles im allergic to everything so im so unhealthy and i cant deal with myself crying every night and going out all the time just so i dont do anything to myself but im lazy and i try to sleep at 10 but i think and think and think until i end up crying then end up crying so much that i cant cry anymore and it happends every night and im scared to sleep because im scared ill die in my sleep but i dont even care if i wake up in the morning
